life is a journey

Do you hear the people sing? singing a song of angry men? it is the music of a people. people who will not be slaves again!

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 20:27:32 -0400

That’s a quote from Les Misérables. I love that book and the recent movie. Actually, all of the movies.

When I break something I can’t help but cut myself when no ones looking. Seeing all of the...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 20:25:41 -0400

When I break something I can’t help but cut myself when no ones looking. Seeing all of the sharp pieces of glass just makes me want to hurt myself so much.

So I guess I’ll update now. Shelby and I finally started dating as of May (4th?) and I found...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 20:23:58 -0400

So I guess I’ll update now.

Shelby and I finally started dating as of May (4th?) and I found out Shelby goes by Sheldon and identifies as a male. Also, Sheldon’s real name is Kayla (and his family continues to call him ‘Kayla’ and use the incorrect pronouns) Also, he tried killing himself on New Year’s I believe it was, anyway that scared me so much, and I was so sad.

He’s amazing, and great. I really like him. I haven’t told my family, obviously. Because I’m scared they will think I’m a lesbian (Not that there is anything wrong with that, but they wouldn’t understand), because I’m sure they wouldn’t understand that if a person born as a woman identifies as a man, he is a man, or vice versa.

Anyway, I’m pansexual, and they wouldn’t understand that. I kind of believe that everyone is pansexual, that you like what who you like regardless, you just can’t help it. But I don’t know, most people wouldn’t understand why I believe that. Although, I’m pretty sure I’m an panromatic asexual. Because sex scares me, and any type of sexual act. I mean, I like other people doing that, or whatever they like, but it makes my stomach turn to even think of myself actually in any type of sexual interaction. I’m a virgin, so maybe I’m just scared? Because I was sexually molested, so that might have to do with it. I mean, some people are sexually changed when they’re raped/molested. But most people aren’t. Maybe I’m one of those few…

Thank god I wasn’t raped. But they say your chances at being raped and/or sexually molested, are doubled once you’re raped or sexually molested just once. Isn’t that absolutely horrible? I’m scared I could be raped someday, or sexually molested, but mostly raped, because most people rape you at my age (17), although I don’t want to worry about it too much, because it seems the more someone fears something the higher it is to likely happen to them. Like “fear of your child being kidnapped” and then that person’s kid is kidnapped. So I try not to freak out too much about being raped someday in my life.

If I ever did get raped, I wouldn’t be able to move on. I’d probably kill myself, not that anyone should. But I just have different standards for myself. People do whatever (as long as it isn’t bad like rape or murder of stuff like that, you know what I mean), but if I do that, I’d hate myself. Or not want to do that, because I would judge myself for whatever reason. Anyways, so if I was raped I couldn’t handle it.

Oh and on Father’s Day, I finally tried Marijuana for the first time. It took me forever to get high, and I even asked several times how to do it right, and I was. But anyway, I finally got high. It was okay, but I guess I wasn’t that high. Sheldon got high extremely quick. Hah. It was adorable. But everyone seemed really silly to me, because I was still not high at that time, and everyone was laughing at nothing and I was confused because they just kept laughing and I just stared at them and asking “what’s so funny?” but they never answered they just laughed, and laughed, and laughed, while I just stared in confusion. It was weird. But then I got a little high.

But yeah, they gave me a joint to take home. But my Dad was really weird about it. He didn’t want to get high (Which he has said he’s always wanted to try marijuana since my mom has and he hasn’t) but my Dad even covered his ears when I was talking about it, and he had this weird look and wouldn’t look at me. I felt like yesterday he was avoiding me. Like he suddenly became “holier than thou” type bullshit. Anyway, I asked my Mom today, and she said she would get high with me so that’s good. I just didn’t want to feel like my Dad felt like I was some devil child now or something. But yeah, wow. I can’t really think of many updates right now because I’ve been drinking so I’ll talk to you all later, and update my “life” later.

I love all of you for following me. I don’t know why anyone would want to follow me and listen to my stupid sob stories, but still thank you so much. I really mean that.

Holy shit, I haven’t posted since January 25th. I’m so sorry about that, I hope no one...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:54:36 -0400

Holy shit, I haven’t posted since January 25th. I’m so sorry about that, I hope no one thought I killed myself, not that anyone would care anyway, but still. SO long update…

Oh, right. Today is my 17th birthday.

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 00:29:00 -0500

Oh, right. Today is my 17th birthday.

Sorry for all the reblogs. Those were actually supposed to be reblogged on my main account, but my...

Sat, 19 Jan 2013 22:28:47 -0500

Sorry for all the reblogs. Those were actually supposed to be reblogged on my main account, but my phone has been fucking up on several things lately.

Judging by what you reblogged I was curious but you do know what Obama wants to do is not disarm the American public but just take weapons like assault rifles which are militarised weapons off the street? they were designed to fire off hundreds of rounds per second not a couple of crooks breaking in

Sat, 19 Jan 2013 22:27:26 -0500

That was supposed to be reblogged on my main account. But oh wow, I feel like an idiot. If that’s actually what he wants to do, then I fully support him on that, because really who the fuck needs an assault rifle, those were made to kill people. Now hand guns I can understand keeping them as protection. But I believe everyone who applies for a gun license should take lessons, so they don’t accidentally kill someone like a family member thinking it’s a home intruder. Anyway, I will definitely research this further, but either way thank you for bringing this to my attention. Although I feel idiotic for not knowing that. But really, thank you.

padapadasomething: BENJI’S SUPERNATURAL (and other random...

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 21:05:46 -0500

padapadasomething:

BENJI’S SUPERNATURAL (and other random stuff) GIVEAWAY

Supernatural Samulet + Jared’s black jelly bracelet used on and off set until S3 (it came as a gift with the samulet so I’m giving out the two of them together)

Supernatural ouija board necklace

Protection necklace - with pentagram and salt

Dean Winchester keychain - samulet, impala, pie, pentagram, tiger.

Supernatural rosary - Wiccan pentagram and crucifix

Music stuff as in: two Ramones posters, 3 DVDs (Sex Pistols Live in Japan; Bad Religion - The Riot; Warped Tour with performances by Bad Religion, NOFX, Anti-Flag, The Skulls, among others) and 4 CDs (MxPx’sSecret Weapon; Linkin Park’s A Thousand Suns; Die Roten Rosen/Die Toten Hosen’s Wir Warten auf’s Christkind; Red Hot Chili Pepper’sStadium Arcadium).

Random things, including: a Bad Religion patch, skull keychain, arrowhead necklace.

One or two surprise gifts (!!!!!)because I’m nice. c:

rules are:

You don’t have to be following me.

Reblog as many times as you want, there’s no limit, but likes don’t count.

Your askbox has to be open for me to contact you if you win.

Giveaway ends on February 25th.

Winner will be chosen with random.org

starxapple: starxapple: my grandpa has a date tonight and hes really old and in a wheelchair and...

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 21:02:37 -0500

starxapple:

starxapple:

my grandpa has a date tonight and hes really old and in a wheelchair and has to drag around this breathing machine but hes just sitting there waiting for the hospice shuttle to take him to pick up his date and he looks suPER EXCITED and its the cutest thing ive ever seen

update he came home and i asked him how it went and he said, “i should have taken an extra tank of oxygen because she took my BREATH AWAY”

surrealistic-pillow: CAN THIS BE ME

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 16:51:44 -0500

surrealistic-pillow:

CAN THIS BE ME

purehogwarts: I think everyone on tumblr does actually want to be friends but no-one wants to make...

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 16:49:51 -0500

purehogwarts:

I think everyone on tumblr does actually want to be friends but no-one wants to make the first move.

sabriiel: go home everybody misha wins

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 16:49:29 -0500

sabriiel:

go home everybody misha wins

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Wed, 09 Jan 2013 08:01:37 -0500

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Tue, 08 Jan 2013 16:33:53 -0500

talktoyourcactus: Is it just me, or did we used to have normal-smelling shampoos before? Everything...

Mon, 07 Jan 2013 12:24:55 -0500

talktoyourcactus:

Is it just me, or did we used to have normal-smelling shampoos before? Everything was strawberry, and peppermint, and citrus. Nice, normal things.

Now I pick a bottle up and it’s like DEW GATHERED BY MONKS FROM THE HIMALAYA MOUNTAINS MIXED WITH A ROOT OF AN ASNCLSCHBK PLANT THAT GROWS ONLY IN AN OBSCURE VILLAGE IN AMAZONIA, WITH A DASH OF MAGICAL BERRIES FROM NARNIA TO GIVE YOUR HAIR VOLUME.

AND IT STILL SMELLS LIKE CITRUS TO ME.

"Why we should not be disarmed (And why Piers Morgan is an idiot)"-Submission.

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 13:20:34 -0500

"Why we should not be disarmed (And why Piers Morgan is an idiot)"-Submission.:

bethifer:

ragingcommonsense:

Half-awake, and nearly paralyzed with fear, you hear muffled whispers.

At least two people have broken into your house and are moving your way.

With your heart pumping, you reach down beside your bed and pick up your shotgun.

You rack a shell into the chamber, then inch toward the door and open it…

In the darkness, you make out two shadows.
One holds something that looks like a crowbar.

When the intruder brandishes it as if to strike, you raise the shotgun and fire.

The blast knocks both thugs to the floor.

One writhes and screams while the second man crawls to the front door

and lurches outside.

As you pick up the telephone to call police, you know you’re in trouble.

In your country, most guns were outlawed years before,
and the few that are privately owned are so stringently regulated as to make them useless..

Yours was never registered..

Police arrive and inform you

that the second burglar has died.

They arrest you for First Degree Murder

and Illegal Possession of a Firearm.

When you talk to your attorney, he tells you not to worry:
authorities will probably plea the case down to manslaughter.

“What kind of sentence will I get?” you ask.

“Only ten-to-twelve years,”

he replies, as if that’s nothing.

“Behave yourself, and you’ll be out in seven.”

The next day, the shooting is the lead

story in the local newspaper.

Somehow, you’re portrayed as an eccentric vigilante while the two men you shot are represented as choirboys.

Their friends and relatives can’t find an unkind word to say about them..

Buried deep down in the article, authorities acknowledge that both “victims” have been arrested numerous times.

But the next day’s headline says it all:

“Lovable Rogue Son Didn’t Deserve to Die.”

The thieves have been transformed from career criminals into Robin Hood-type pranksters..

As the days wear on, the story takes wings.

The national media picks it up,

then the international media.
The surviving burglar has become a folk hero.

Your attorney says the thief is preparing to sue you, and he’ll probably win.

The media publishes reports that your home has been burglarized several times in the past and

that you’ve been critical of local police for their lack

of effort in apprehending the suspects.

After the last break-in, you told your neighbor that you would be prepared next time.

The District Attorney uses this to allege

that you were lying in wait for the burglars.

A few months later, you go to trial.

The charges haven’t been reduced,

as your lawyer had so confidently predicted.

When you take the stand, your anger at

the injustice of it all works against you..

Prosecutors paint a picture of you

as a mean, vengeful man.

It doesn’t take long for the jury to convict you of all charges.

The judge sentences you to life in prison.

This case really happened.

On August 22, 1999, Tony Martin of Emneth, Norfolk , England, killed one burglar and wounded a second.

In April, 2000, he was convicted and is now serving a life term..

How did it become a crime to defend one’s own life in the once great British Empire ?
It started with the Pistols Act of 1903.

This seemingly reasonable law forbade selling pistols to minors or felons and
established that handgun sales were to be made only to those who had a license.

The Firearms Act of 1920 expanded licensing to include not only handguns but all firearms except shotguns..

Later laws passed in 1953 and 1967 outlawed the carrying of any weapon by private citizens and

mandated the registration of all shotguns.

Momentum for total handgun confiscation began in earnest after the Hungerford mass shooting in 1987.
Michael Ryan, a mentally disturbed man with a Kalashnikov rifle, walked down the street shooting everyone he saw.
When the smoke cleared, 17 people were dead.

The British public, already de-sensitized by eighty years of “gun control”, demanded even tougher restrictions.

(The seizure of all privately owned handguns was the objective even though Ryan used a rifle.)

Nine years later, at Dunblane, Scotland,

Thomas Hamilton used a semi-automatic weapon to murder 16 children and a teacher at a public school.

For many years, the media had portrayed all gun owners as mentally unstable, or worse, criminals.

Now the press had a real kook with which to beat up law-abiding gun owners.

Day after day, week after week, the media gave up all pretense of objectivity and demanded a total ban on all handguns.

The Dunblane Inquiry, a few months later, sealed the fate of the few sidearm’s

still owned by private citizens.

During the years in which the British government incrementally took away most gun rights,
the notion that a citizen had the right to armed self-defense came to be seen as vigilantism.

Authorities refused to grant gun licenses to people who were threatened,

claiming that self-defense was no longer considered a reason to own a gun.

Citizens who shot burglars or robbers or rapists were charged while the real criminals were released.

Indeed, after the Martin shooting, a police spokesman was quoted as saying,

“We cannot have people take the law into their own hands.”

All of Tony Martin’s neighbors had been robbed numerous times,
and several elderly people were severely injured in beatings by young thugs
who had no fear of the consequences.
Martin himself, a collector of antiques,
had seen most of his collection
trashed or stolen by burglars.

When the Dunblane Inquiry ended,
citizens who owned handguns
were given three months to turn them over to local authorities.

Being good British subjects,
most people obeyed the law.
The few who didn’t were visited by police
and threatened with ten-year prison sentences if they didn’t comply.

Police later bragged that they’d taken
nearly 200,000 handguns from private citizens.

How did the authorities know who had handguns?
The guns had been registered and licensed.
Kind of like cars. Sound familiar?

WAKE UP AMERICA;

THIS IS WHY OUR FOUNDING FATHERS PUT THE SECOND AMENDMENT IN OUR CONSTITUTION.

“…It does not require a majority to prevail, but rather an irate, tireless minority keen to set brush fires in people’s minds..”
—Samuel Adams

You had better wake up, because Obama is doing this very same thing, over here.

And there are stupid people in congress and on the street that will go right along with him.

I KNEW that sounded like Britain in the beginning.

If you scrolled past thinking this is some loony conspiracy theory, scroll back the fuck up cause this really happened.

Do you get drunk easily?

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 00:12:41 -0500

No, not at all.

It was something depressing, I remember that.

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 22:01:15 -0500

It was something depressing, I remember that.

I’m pretty sure I’m drunk, so thank god for spell check, in this moment. It’s been...

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 21:59:27 -0500

I’m pretty sure I’m drunk, so thank god for spell check, in this moment. It’s been 10 minutes since I started typing this. I forgot what I was going to say.

It isn't New Years Eve without alcohol.

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 21:46:37 -0500